Time to think

While doing my daily routine I have lots of time to think. I would like to post some of the things I think about on a daily basis on here too, naturally.

Today I was thinking about Billy, as I often do. I was thinking about the first time we said "I love you". I had wanted to tell him so badly but I was trying so hard to keep it in and wait. Finally the day came where I just couldn't hold it in any longer. I hemmed and hawed and debated whether or not it was a good idea. I didn't want to scare him off. It was love at first sight but should I tell him?? Finally I made my mind up, I had to tell him before it ate me up inside.

I was meeting up with him after work for a midnight bike ride. (This is back when I was still a waitress) I decided to ride down to the place I first realized I wanted to be with him forever. It was a field not far from my work where you could still see the stars. For one of our first dates he had set up a picnic blanket there with candles all around it. We drank Pino Noir and ate chocolate covered cherries. We talked for hours. I was so smitten.

So I wanted to take him back to that place and tell him under the stars. We rode our bikes down to the field and I dropped my bike and ran to the exact spot. He followed me and gave me a huge hug spinning me around in circles. Nervousness set in so horribly, I hoped what I was about to say was going to be alright. Just as I get my lips and mind to come to agreement and utter the words...he looked into my eyes and said it first. I was so shocked! I couldn't believe my ears!
This was almost a year ago that we spoke those words to one another for the first time. We say them every day now and every day they carry more weight than the day before. It is an amazing feeling to truly love someone more with each day that passes.

It was nice to think back on that today. I have so many amazing memories with him. I am so happy to know that I will have many more to come.